I am in such a mess .

Sorry that i am not the girl that you wanted . I've tried my best .. 

I am always in a mess . And things doesn't always turns out the way I wanted or I wished . I don't know whether did I ever ever done something right . It seems like you're always right and I am always wrong . Have you ever really wondered how am i really feeling ? All you know is to say that I always hurt your feelings and all . What about me ? 

All those one word or cold replies that you are giving me like "Lol" "Lol okay" I find that i am always the one texting you first . But it was not like that when we were before the relationship . You will always text me FIRST , text me everyday every hour every minute and catch all those 11:11 for me . 

And one fine day , you just started giving me cold replies . Why ? Did i do something wrong to deserve all your shit ?

I seriously don't understand . I talked to you about this problem many times .

1) Your cold replies :

You : Then you expect me to type an essay long text all the time ?

Seriously , I don't need you to do that . Just not some cold replies that's all .

2) You rarely text me :

You : I am busy with my studies . (And you blame me cos I reply your text slow ? Ridiculous)

And now you are blaming me that I reply you slow everytime . Ohhh wow . All these problems were actually caused by me . My insercurity and all . Well , my fault ....... I understand .

We texted lesser and lesser each days . It is like we can actually not text each other for days . K fine . I know what will happen to us eventually .

You saw me . Like me . Want me . Sweet talk me . Got me . Love me . Got tired of me . One fucking fine day you left me .

Promise that you will never ever leave me . It's funny . Cos you fucking left me .

Jerk .

But sorry , I have long forgotten about you and move on to my new life . Go fucking find your perfect kind of girl too . The one that will reply your text fast enough and won't hurt your heart or whatever for your defintion of  perfect girl will be . Good luck in that huh (:

Byeeeee ~ Just another random post !